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11/01/06--21:24: Thursday, November 02, 2006 (chan 1620228)

wow i havent been on here forever damn.

i didnt think it was still here. haha

check me out on myspace www.myspace.com/galacticstar




11/08/06--21:49: Thursday, November 09, 2006 (chan 1620228)

theres so much going in life right now

i dont even know where to start. working to pay bills and to go to shows. got college so i can get a degree in business. its a new chapter in life basically, just beginning with no plot yet. definetly been sick the past few days which suck, for i should be at work. paying off my credit card than being off work. it's going to take me awhile to pay it back, but it will be paid off before you know it. anyway new shows that ill be going to

hellogoodbye

deftones/deadsy

gwar

genitoturers

papa roach

next big thing

senses fail

that sounds correct. i spend way to much on shows but ohh well. with all the people i meet and the friends that show up at these shows makes it amazing to be there. ill even travel around to see the show a couple of times.




11/12/06--19:39: love stories are just dreams (chan 1620228)

seriously does anyone have a love story, maybe one out of million.

but i never seen anyone truly happy with the person they were with. okay so i hate my love life. but after so many guys you wonder when does it end and where is my guy that i want to be with.  it truly sux, to go through the same shit all the time. the cheating boyfriends, the boys that use you for sex or money, the guys that just agree to go out with you cause you really liked them, or the guys that never tell the fucking truth when they break up with you... etc so much more i could add on. but personaly i hate the guys, that rather be friends (even though your 50x better than the girl they want to go out with). that really hurts your self esstem on getting a guy. because you never know what you did wrong to make them think you has a friend than a possible girlfriend (even though they lead you on thinking they are intrested). then when they found there "girl" they want to date. they throw you to the side and your shit out of luck. so i was enaged at one point, i thought i found the person for me. but we ended up fighting cause i love being with my friends than anyone in the world. a guy can come and go, but friends are for life. i only consider some people has my friends cause they were there for me, when i called for help. (i rarely ask for help, im very indepent if you get to know me, not even my fiance would know. he thinks im spoiled). but on to the story we got back together, before he left to go back up north (he did use to live here when we were down here). after the fighting that occured down here, ive never been able to think of him, the same way. not even my dream guys seem pleasing anymore. my kisses are cold, my heart is shattered, i no longer believe that love is real. see guys need to relize that their are girls out there that dont need your money(i will fight with you on who pays), or your looks. and we suffer cause were not the girl who flaunts our stuff or fakes are way into your hearts. seriously try thinking of all the girls youve dated men and see how many damn things are related to them. they bitch, whine and greedy with money. the end. im done with my bitching.




11/13/06--20:26: Tuesday, November 14, 2006 (chan 1620228)

I HATE GUYS!

THEY SUCK AND I HATE THEM!

WHY???

BECAUSE I HAD ENOUGH OF BEING THE FUCKING FRIEND! THE FRIEND! GRRRRR! JEEZ THERE'S GOT TO BE A GUY IN THIS WORLD THAT WILL TELL ME THE GOD DAMN TRUTH AT FIRST, INSTEAD LEAD ME ON. AND DROP ME FOR THE DUMB BITCH THAT DOES NOTHING "YES NOTHING". I HEAR IT ALL THE TIME FROM THEM. "OHH WE SAT AROUND HER HOUSE AND DID NOTHING" OR " WE WENT TO THE MALL" "WENT TO THE MOVIES" WOOOO! OR MAYBE THE GUY RELIZES THAT THEY LIKE ME MORE THAN THEIR GIRL THEY DROP ME FOR AND TRYS TO CHEAT ON THEM WITH ME. BUT I DONT ALLOW THAT CRAP. SO WHOS NICE AND ALL, ME! AND GETS HURT IN THE END, ME!!! SO FUCK YOU GUYS! RAWR!!!!!!

okay i needed that.... but seriously it sux.

because your jealous on why you couldnt be more than a friend. yet the guy has more fun with you than the girl he likes. its pretty sad. it happens way to much with me. they lead me on, we kiss, we play and i get drop has the friend for the girl with the boobs, butt, and body. yet they say they feel guilty, they dont. they only feel it when they relize im wayyyy better than that girl. which is sad. cause i have a friend and we played around before he dated his fiance. now he invites me over to his house and we chill and talk. he flirts with me, he wants me to stay over has long has i can (he wouldnt let me leave sometimes), he tells me all the time that im fun to be with, he wants me to kiss him (even though he doesnt say it, he'll push my head to his), he asks me what im thinking all the time when were alone together. he told me it was my lost to lose him. when we were fooling around i asked him if he wanted to go out, and he said the same thing to me. i like someone esle and i rather have you has a friend.  so how is it my lost. i can go on with soooooooo many examples. but thats a really good one right there. i figure that my love life sux. and i was born to be hurt and that will be all. so whatever tommorrow my mind will forget what happen (so many people screwed me over that i developed a mental eraser, so tommorrow when i wake up the situation is in the back of me head never to bother me again. ill be fresh and new with a look on the world.) im not insane, i dont keep emotions bottle up. if i find something out ill come out with it. its when you been hurt so much, you litterally drive your self to a deep depression and your depression turns into happiness and never again will you keep on crying. you just walk on with the eyes of saddness but the smile of true joy. i dont try to get attention, i get attention 24/7, i would rather be alone, playing video games all day. so yah my life is mentaly messed up. so have good day, im going to play star ocean again.




11/30/06--20:53: Friday, December 01, 2006 (chan 1620228)

harhar!

i want a nissan 300zx tt...

if someone got me that i would love them forever.

or b. you taught me how to ride a motorcycle.

then i would just plain out fuck you.

thanks.




03/18/07--09:32: hotels are like soap operas (chan 1620228)

         i work at a hotel now. blah i cant say the name . but  i work in a practical soap opera enviroment. chasing down people, flirting, fights, drunk people stragging around. what better job than that. (i dont do the flirting the guest end up doing most of it) but anyway today ive been chasing 3 people to chainge a credit card, to get them to see when there checking out and to see if whos paying for room or not. but ohhh well. the phones have been ringing constantly and its up and down and up and down wooohooo. excersie at work, what fun. and i dont need to go run around.

        anyway st.patties day was fun. i was drunk and high and watching naruto on a big flat screen. not has big waynes but almost there. i still like waynes though. anyway mikes pissed at me, why cause i went with percy and amanda to amandas mom house to have fun. not be sitting there figuring out what to do. either way he's been pissing me off, just like kasey did. not having any money, having me to lend money, and not doing anything fun. im person in the group trying to get them to have fun. so yah im bored ttyl




06/11/07--14:27: hahahaha (chan 1620228)

there some people in this world that need to go back to a medical ward.

okay this girl, i use to hangout with, i was involved with someone in her family before i hanged with her. thats the story on that.

i dont hate her, but shes got some attitude problems. she left a message on my ex's page that something will go down if i go out to gandy. on top of that she left a rude message on mine, sorry but thats immature, i broke up with him because i found someone who will be there for me and that i love. im not gonna suffer in a relationship that is going to be in hell in matter of mins.  i think she has no place to say anything to me or be a enforcer to hurt other people cause someone they know is just sad or upset because a decision making that will help out both in the end. but she needs help, before she goes in the deep end, which she probably is, since shes going to college this year, expecially usf. so i feel bad that shes going to be fucked up soon, if not by me, i dont fight, i play smarter. lets say legal actions last longer than brusies.ohhh weelll.

i love carlos peace.

we be going to mexico either in dec or in march yay. me and carlos (mostly carlos) were building the kitchen now. it's going to turn out awsome. i need to take pics of the house. because if you want anything done in your house carlos is willing to make it if you pay him. he doesnt do shitty job either. he works with steel, stain less, chrome, gold/silver/brass plating, electric, cars, plumbing, wood, and carbon fiber. so yah, were either opening a custom furiniture store or performance car mechanic shop. so we dont know. im going to be donw with my Associates by next year. and ill be going into business, and ill be learning japanesse and spanish. so i hopefully be able to speak both fluent one day. but yah were building all furniture for the house, i dont know about the couchs, but everything esle we are.




06/19/07--14:33: i hate my ex fiance (chan 1620228)

i hate him.
i hate him.
i hate him.
he's such an asshole. i say one thing, he's makes it another jeez it's like fighting with my mom. which i get very fed up with in an matter of mins. he wanted to come over last and i didnt want him too. he was being an asshole and complaining at me that it's my fault im wasting his time. when he wants to come over. hmmmmmm. yeah im wasting his time.
i broke up with him for good reasons:
1. has an anger problem when he gets mad, will not listen to me when mad.
2.always thinks he's right
3. i didnt see him has i use too.
4. always annoyed me, by hitting my ass
5. didnt want to try at anything in life, he finally started school he's 25 and im getting my AA degree next year.
wanted me to complete school so i could support everything.
6.his friends had no respect for me, if your going to go into relationship with someone, your friends should have respect for your decision making, not spy on your gf when with friends and make big lies about everything.
7. try to control aspects of my life. if i want to smoke a cigrette i will and do so. my health not yours, ill deal with the cancer.
8.i want to be successful in my life, didnt like the ideal of me studying aboard in other countries to learn business in other countries.
9. I DONT LIKE HIM AT ALL ANYMORE.

is that a crime?
apprently it is to him and his family.
ugh, the insanity of my life


me and carlos are building the cabinets, there turning out nice. we got red oak to make it with and were staining them a blackish color with glass doors to go along with the rest of the house and then after the kitchen is done it's either the living room or the bedroom. we like modern looks more than the traditional look and the antique look. but carlos will be over when aaron asshole comes over to bother me. so yes if aaron does something to me, aaron going to get it from carlos. carlos is crazy puerto rican-mexican lol that i love alot. no he isnt going to shoot him, but beat the crap out of him. puerto-mexican black belt, it's like hispanic jackie lee. rofl. thats how it would be.

ill be moving with carlos by next year, has soon as the credit cards get paid off. yay ill be in tampa by next year, and whenever we get married ill be in mexico, not getting fucked in the ass by my facism government who we should call the new nazi cause they miss treat there own people to get money how sad. mexico sounds better right now.the city not the country where the immgrations come from. where mexico is a striving country.
peace back to work i go too.






09/09/09--10:01: Wednesday, September 09, 2009 (chan 1620228)

its been such a long time since ive been on here.

it's been atleast a few years, i was having one of those remembering the past moment and i remember i used to blogg on here. lol. like when i was in highschool and early college.

my old posts are hiliarious! jeez that saying "your gonna look back at that and laugh about it" is very true. so heres the update of whats been going on in my life.

im still with carlos ( i left my ex fiance for) its been 2 years and 4 months now. i am heading to medical or pharamacy school ^.^ yay! I have applied at both (yeah i took both admissions test) I like both careers so who ever takes me i'm going to go in. But right now i am just trying to make it right now since the economy is horrible right now. It's hard for me to get school loans and i am working at walmart now. (ewww!) gotta take what you can get. i hope people can actually evolve to more higher standards, so we can get out of this mess. People wanting freebies from the government, Get Lost Litterally! i payed my way through school, and all my bills with barely nothing paycheck (^.^ SCORRE ONE FOR ME!!) i am pretty sure you can do the same. ohh wait nevermind your children are gonna get you money. we definetly need a limit on how many kids the governement will support for low income families. ohhh and im not a democrat or a republican, im the new american, wanna know what it is called

" Hard Working American Who Wants A Career Doesn't Need No One To Tell Them What To Do And Wishes Their Taxes Don't Go To Morons Who Didn't Do Anything Or Didn't Tried At All So They Can Use Their Taxes To Buy Stuff Group"

yeah im an American! lol.

you might disagree with me, but i would get mad if you payed $500 dollars into the government and you only got $150 dollars back and you barely covered your expenses for the year and wish you could buy some new clothes  and your about to lose your home, but a single mom with one kid living with her "husband" (they don't get legally married but they act has one) pays $500 into the system and gets more than $3000 dollars back and "husband" is recieving all government support like "food stamps and Section 8( which is where the gov't pays your rent). I mean i got denied student aid because my mom made less than $50K (i have to wait intil im 24 before i can claim just myself on Finicial Aid) and is supporting me and my sister in school.i mean that doesn't sound fair... maybe we should all do it.

Show everyone that us, Working Class America! pay for everything and that we deserve to be treated better and fairly. before we will go back to working and doing things on our own. i think the lower income people should be shaking your hands Working class America for doing the things we do.

lol enough of my ranting.. lol.. but i am getting politically involved since i think people are degrading there critical thinking skills and only thinking more like zombies than ever.

so yeah thats whats going on

BYE!

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03/15/10--20:50: Tuesday, March 16, 2010 (chan 1620228)

Wow! i read my past blogs. I am still wondering if that is me. It's so werid to think it was me. In reality it is me. Haha.

It is great to look in the past and see all the entries that were written. It really does make you laugh when you look in the past. Jeez couldn't contain myself a couple of times.

But all is good, in no time.